Depressed

UBC reflection to be writtened a little later, when I *cross my fingers* have a little more confidence, after what turned out to be a brutal battle I faced yesterday at my last exam.

Till then.

~♥~

i see a big cloud 
outside my window

let me capture it
keep it in a bottle

together,
we will ride this cloud
and see many rainbows

as colourful as our lives
as happy as the two of us

P.L.A.N.S

Things to do after EXAMS:

Go out with BOYFRIEND!!!
Pack and move out of GAGE!!! :'(
Watch DRAMA!!!
Watch CINEMA PARADISO (Italian movie)!!!
Bake BROWNIES!!!
Read NOVELS!!!
Read COOKING blogs!!!
Watch FOOD Network!!!
Shopping for CLOTHES!!!
Go to the BEACH!!!
Cook YUMMY food!!!

Places to GO:
Steveston, Richmond :)
Metrotown :)
Beaches :)
Parks :)
Stanley Park :)
West Vancouver :)
Lynn Valley :)

Things to be DONE:
Apply post-grad WORK permit :|
Find a JOB :|
HOUSEhunting :|

Exam Update!

I cannot believe I haven't written in here for like 3 weeks!! It's been too long man~~ What have I been busy with eh?? End of school, and then exams.. Seriously, what HAVE I been up to??? Alrighty, some updates..

Exams were scheduled to be 19, 20, 20, 28 April, but I talked to Italian prof and managed to get myself to write the exam on 23 April so it won't clash on same day as transport econ (which was quite a disaster on its own already, yesterday..).

So, exam season, the very last of my university undergraduate career.. I feel like I should be a little more nervous, panicking a little more.. I'm taking it slightly easy now.. MUST. NOT. BE. COMPLACENT!!!

Speaking of last, I cannot believe my 4 years of undergraduate have passed by just like that! The last time I blinked, I was still a teenager!! I promise a proper reflection after exams, a look at all the wonderful memories UBC created for me, all the people that made it so memorable, the years of my life that my dad always claims to be the best in one's lifetime.. Now I realize what he says is true!! Seriously, university is the best time of your life.. ENJOY IT WHILE YOU CAN!!!

Looking forward to summer, weather's turning nice and warm. Flowers are blooming, the smell of rain brings springtime here and shoos winter away! I have so many things I want to do in summer that I cannot even begin to list them all!! First summer in Vancouver, whooooo!!! Anticipating the hot summer days to come! :)

So much I want to say, but I'll stop here for now. Stay tuned for after-exam updates! I cannot believe I am graduating in A MONTH!!!!!! Cap and gown, here I come!!

Confidence for Tomorrow

I think I wanted to talk about this awhile ago, maybe for about a week already, but when I wanted to write here I forgot what I was supposed to write about, and when I remembered, I was too busy with schoolwork.

Now that I have time, here it goes:

In my sociolinguistics class on Monday, we were watching a video where Daniel Everett was speaking about the Pirahã people. I had never heard of them but that's not the main point of this entry. It was certainly a very interesting video but something he said at the end struck me.

He quoted a line from the Bible which I found out was from Matthews 6:34 - "Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own."

He phrased it in a very sensible way and what I got from it was:

Take care of today, and tomorrow will take care of itself.. This is not short-term thinking; this is long-term thinking with confidence ...

It is true. Why do we worry so much about the future when we don't even spend time thinking about what we should be doing today to make a better tomorrow?

Whether we are talking about saving the Earth or referring to our daily lives, be it as simple as finishing a task today or as complex as planning our career lives ahead of us, TODAY is what matters. If you don't concentrate on doing what you should focus on right this moment, how can you be sure that things later on will turn out the way you want them to?

It is the way he says "long-term thinking with confidence" was what really got me. I am not a person with much self-confidence, so this was really a booster to my short-term thinking, giving me more positive support that we should really live life to the fullest and treasure everything we have. I think my blog is really sounding repetitive with all these sentences in ever other post, but I'm seeing life in a whole new perspective from what I did a few years ago.

People don't change, life does. It's the people around us who makes us who we are, and we don't change by ourselves. We change BECAUSE life brings us so many different things that make us stronger or weaker, and it is up to us to adapt to that, to stand ourselves up or be defeated.

I don't know where I'm going with this point, but I definitely have more thoughts on it. I'm sure many people these days are too wrapped up in our hectic society to spare some time to give these things a thought. If you don't agree with me, it's entirely up to you. It's just my two cents worth, so have a thought yourself and please share them with me!